Joni
Day 37: Cry Out

FIX YOUR EYES ON JESUS (Hebrews 12:2)
we are told BUT what if you are too afraid to fix your eyes on HIM because doubt overcomes your soul as you question~ "JESUS, Are you REALLY who YOU say YOU are?" I looked into JESUS eyes in the midst of an overwhelming darkness that I couldn’t shake.
A darkness that was so dark,
that I had never felt before. It was after a time I was so depleted
and in such despair
that I was actually afraid to FIX my eyes on JESUS
because I couldn't even "feel" GOD~
therefore I was afraid to trust HIS SON. But then I saw HIM in the garden of Gethsemane. Slumped over a rock, in HIS weakest moment as “....HE began to be sorrowful and troubled.