Day 27: Uncontrollable Control
I never realized what I used to do,
until GOD UNLEASHED me from what I used to do~
I would try to CONTROL my life
by doing all that I could do
ahead of time
everything possible that I could to do
to try to protect myself from
any possible encounter
of getting my heart hurt by others.
But what do you do when PERFECT is never PERFECT enough?
Oh what an never ending task
that never ends up the way you want
we do not have the power to
whether they will hurt
or disappoint us.
Oh how the arrows would still fly
that would pierce my heart
with hurt, frustration and disappointment
no matter how
PERFECT I tried to do or be.
person, place, or thing~
I CONTROL WHO I BELIEVE.
I CONTROL WHO I FOLLOW.
I CONTROL what I do with what I want to CONTROL
by RELEASING "ALL" to the PERFECT ONE,
and I mean ALL~
And then it happens
because you are not in CONTROL
GOD UNLEASHES you
into a new world
that you never thought existed
you start to fly~
even though you never knew you could
because HE lifts your wings
and all you have to do is
"Cast all your anxiety on HIM because he cares for you" (I Peter 5:7)
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge HIM, And HE shall direct your paths" (Proverbs 3:5:6).
I sit here with tears flowing my heart
as I had it all wrong with the striving,
as it is in
the STILLNESS with GOD
where you give CONTROL back to the ONE
who does our life way better than we could ever do it.
As it is in the RELEASE~
the scary place
to let go of ALL that you want to CONTROL,
giving it back to the CONTROLLER.
It seems so bizarre
that in order to regain CONTROL
you have to give up CONTROL,
yet when you give it back to
who doesn't CONTROL us like robots,
but with GRACE
that gently leads us to the place where
GOD can be GOD
and we can be HIS CHILDREN
who depend on their DADDY
like their life depended on it,
because it does.
In order to regain CONTROL
you have to take the stance of
HIS peace that transcends all understanding
GOD does PERFECT all the time.
Just look at the CROSS.
In order to get up you have to get down
on your knees and
then you will be
"constantly rejoicing in hope [because of our confidence in CHRIST],
steadfast and patient in distress..."
Just be RELEASING your whole SELF~
"devoted to prayer [continually seeking wisdom, guidance, and strength]" (Romans 12:!2)
CONTROL is no longer in your vocabulary
because it was never supposed to be.
Let GOD take you from
CONTROL to SURRENDER
and then you will
CONTROL what you can CONTROL
that is personally yours~
"The Sovereign LORD is my strength!
HE makes me as surefooted as a deer,
able to tread upon the heights" (Habakkuk 3:19)
and then my friend you will not only fly but
all things that strive to keep your feet on the ground
"TOUCH THE SKY" (listen to the song below)