As my mind is starting to wander
to those empty places in my heart
that only JESUS can fill,
yet I get impatient as
even I know ONLY JESUS can FILL my HEART,
I also want what I want when I want it.
I am not talking about material things,
as it is about
those things I pray about that
are in GOD'S will.
But if I stay here too long
I start traveling down the pity party trail
and start to FEAR that the pain is going to crush me.
Oh THE FEAR OF FALLING APART.
BUT GOD doesn't leave me here,
as THE HOLY SPIRIT nudges me to
REMEMBER ALL that GOD has done in my life.
FOREVER FAITHFUL.
And I have to laugh
because
GOD does not change.
HE is the SAME GOD.
That is why it is HIM who we depend on.
And GOD IS FAITHFUL right this moment
as the following words
are being sung in the background~
"I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know YOU I'd probably fall off the edge, I don't know where I'd go if YOU ever let go. So keep me held in YOUR hand"*
Oh I would FALL APART if I was
APART from GOD.
GOD is the thread that runs from your heart
to the heart of HIS SON
and then right back to GOD HIMSELF.
FEAR of FALLING APART is not a bad thing,
because the worse thing that can happen is that I cry,
yet with GOD.
To FEEL your FEELINGS, with GOD.
To FACE your HURTS, with GOD.
Because GOD never FALLS APART!
And now the following words are being sung,
that are
FILLING
those empty spaces and places of my heart
with HIS TRUTH~
"YOU'RE my safe place, my hideaway YOU'RE my anchor, my saving grace YOU'RE my constant, my steadiness YOU'RE my shelter, my oxygen" *
Now that is our GOD~
"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my GOD is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold" (Psalm 18:2).
My wandering mind is no longer wandering down
the pity party path
because my
GOD
met me right where I was
to bring me back to HIMSELF
so
THE FEAR OF FALLING APART
has become a far off whisper
that I no longer entertain
for
"I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know YOU. THANK GOD I DO"
*(listen to the song below)