Unscrambled

Oh how I try to unscramble my thoughts & the thoughts of others

striving to

~understand the misunderstandings

~make sense of the senseless

~change the unchangeable

I always come up more scrambled.

But then I feel a tap on my shoulder, yet I am too tired to respond

as it is GOD

asking me to come to HIM.

But I pause

as I feel HE gets tired of my coming to HIM over & over again

as I continue to pour out my HEART to HIM.

But HE waits for me and never pushes me away.

And now I have no WORDS to say

which is not like me to be speechless,

yet I am right now.

But HE knows my WORDS even before I speak them~

so is it really about the WORDS I say

or is it really about my inviting

HIM into my

unscrambled mind?

I look up again & cry out again

to HIM who knows me better than I know myself

as HE HEARS

my WORDS & your WORDS as they are music to HIS EARS.

And all it takes is a moment to pause to let it all out to HIM,

as I borrow the WORDS of David from Psalm 13~

"How long, LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will YOU hide YOUR face from me?

 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?

 Look on me and answer, LORD my GOD. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, 1I have overcome him,' and my foes will rejoice when I fall" (Psalm 13:1-4)

And then it happens

as HE meets me & meets you right where we are bringing clarity,

as it is not about the exact WORDS

as it is about

talking to the ONE who is all open ears & then everything starts to make sense~

"But I trust in YOUR unfailing love; my heart rejoices in YOUR salvation.  I will sing the LORD's praise, for HE has been good to me" (Psalm 13:5-6).

I no longer have to

~understand the misunderstandings

~make sense of the senseless

~change the unchangeable

because HE always does.

Thank YOU GOD for

"WHO YOU ARE TO ME" (listen to the song below)