To Have Or Have Not

I am weird.

All night the question

"WHO AM I WITHOUT GOD"

kept me awake.

Was I asking the question or was GOD asking me

or was I thinking of so many who don't "HAVE" GOD?

What does it mean to "HAVE" GOD?

Is it knowing that HE exists?

Is it knowing that HE is talked about in a church?

Is it knowing that people who do "HAVE" GOD are classed as religious freaks