Day 9: God Feelings

I have been PROCRASTINATING

this morning.

I have been PROCRASTINATING

from FEELING what I don't want to FEEL,

yet I know that I have to FEEL. 

It is quite absurd,

because how do you go from

being filled with THE JOY of the LORD,

to the FEAR of FACING FEELINGS

that starts

to eat away at HIS JOY?

But

THE JOY OF THE LORD

is not a FEELING,

even though

FEELINGS strive to trump

THE JOY OF THE LORD.

For

THE JOY OF THE LORD

is

JESUS,

and LIVING IN JESUS

is

 LIVING IN A PEACEFUL STATE OF TRUST.

THE JOY OF JESUS

does not change,

because JESUS doesn't change.

My prayer has been for something to change

that hasn't changed,

and it is hitting my hard this morning.

FEELINGS come and go, but JESUS is here to stay.

So as I asked myself as the Psalmist has asked,

"Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul?    

Why are you crying the blues?"*

And guess what is happening right this moment,

as I am asking GOD that question.

HE IS ANSWERING.

HE just wanted to draw me closer to HIS HEART,

so HE could be closer in my HEART,

because HE knows me so well

that HE has to make

 HIMSELF FIRST

in my LIFE,

before I set out today to LIVE the day HE has planned for me.

GOD ALWAYS wants

 MORE of me

and MORE of you

so HE can be our MORE.

And it is in my seeking this morning,

when I finally stopped

PROCRASTINATING

from

FEELING what I was FEELING,

when GOD drew me closer,

as I am that deer~

"As the deer pants for streams of water,   

 so my soul pants for you, my GOD. My soul thirsts for GOD, for the living GOD".*

And there was GOD, waiting for me so GRACIOUSLY, 

for HE had a MESSAGE for me this morning,

yet I had to SEEK HIM.

And HE ANSWERED through

Psalm 42~

"Fix my eyes on GOD—   

 soon I’ll be praising again.HE puts a smile on my face.   

 HE'S my GOD".*

Wow.

What if I kept PROCRASTINATING this morning,

from SEEKING GOD in my PROCRASTINATION.

I would have missed

HIS APPOINTMENT HE had for me.

Oh my friend,

don't MISS HIM.

Are you PROCRASTINATING from

FACING a FEELING that you don't want to FACE?

I FEARED facing FEELINGS that I knew I was FEELING,

about something that I can't change.

I FEARED FEELING the void in my heart.

But in my FEAR

I was FEARING that GOD

would not be able to fill the void.

But

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom,

    and knowledge of the HOLY ONE is understanding"

(Proverbs 9:10).

THE GOOD FEAR OF THE LORD.

To FACE THE FACE OF FEAR with GOD.

So my question this morning,

"Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul?  

  Why are you crying the blues?"*(Psalm 42),

opened my

HEART to

enter into

GOD'S PRESENCE.

Therefore,

HIS JOY

 has returned to my soul.

"So I throw up my handsAnd praise YOU again and again'Cause all that I have is a hallelujahHallelujahAnd I know it's not muchBut I've nothing else fit for a KINGExcept for a heart singing hallelujahHallelujah"**

In

**"Gratitude"

(listen to the song below)