"Why me GOD"
is a question I ask
when I don't like what is not going on in my life.
And I think GOD just chuckles and says
"Why not you?".
Do I think myself so far above everyone else
that I don't want to suffer
when I don't have what I want when I want it.
Oh how PRIDE bites you when you least expect it,
because GOD won't let you stay there
as HUMILITY
overwhelms you
as it is a great reminder
that I CHOSE to FOLLOW JESUS.
CHOICE has brought me to this place
and I could leave at any moment,
because GOD is so GRACIOUS
that HE doesn't force anyone to
BELIEVE IN HIM
or to
BELIEVE IN HIS SON.
So why do I get on my soap box
that I BELIEVE I deserve everything to go the way I want it,
because I am FOLLOWING JESUS?
Hmm.
How quickly I forget
that I made the LIFE SAVING CHOICE
to FOLLOW JESUS
and yes it comes with a price.
A beautiful price.
My LIFE for HIS LIFE.
Does it get lonely at times?
Oh yes.
Does it hurt at times?
Oh yes.
I gave my life to JESUS
because I love JESUS more than my own life
and yes it comes with a price.
The PRICE OF LIFE.
My LIFE for HIS.
ETERNALLY SEALED IN HIM.
JESUS takes my SIN and I get to wear
FORGIVENESS
that I don't deserve,
but get to wear it anyway.
Oh the PRICE of FORGIVENESS
that bled on a cross.
So when I start to feel my bleeding heart ache
because of my CHOICE to FOLLOW JESUS
I am reminded that it is my CHOICE
because I NEED JESUS
and
because everyone NEEDS JESUS.
What if EVERYONE FOLLOWED JESUS?
Oh relationships would be restored.
Love would be in the air
because
HIS PEACE would fill everyone.
So this morning as I was awaken with great sorrow on my heart,
I do what I always do
and just sit with GOD
and open my heart to HIM,
in my weariness,
but then I hear HIS soft whisper
encouraging me~
"Therefore ________* (PUT YOUR NAME)
do not lose heart. Though outwardly ________ you are wasting away, yet inwardly _________ you are being renewed day by day.
For your light and momentary troubles are achieving for you, __________ an eternal glory that far outweighs them all...."
Oh GOD understands when I strive to make sense of what doesn't make sense.
And then my ABBA FATHER
wipes my tears
and takes me under HIS wing
and reminds me that I am just a
little girl,
but not an ordinary little girl
because I am HIS little girl
because of my CHOICE
to PUT HIM IN MY STORY.
So HE picks me up from my pity party
and I continue to walk out my CHOICE to FOLLOW the ONE whose LIFE is mine~
"...So __________*, fix your eyes not on what is seen,
but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal"
(2 Corinthians 4:16-18)
And I won't quit
"LOVING MY JESUS"
and wanting everyone to be
"LOVING MY JESUS" (listen to the song below)
because HE never stops LOVING ME.
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