I have been fighting with my computer
in the wee hours of the morning.
For when it randomly shuts down,
it takes all my words with it
so that they are missing,
but then I start writing again.
And this made me think~
who am I if I couldn't write?
Let me rephrase that
Who am I if I didn't wake up to meet with
GOD
so that HE can pour into me all that I need?
Hmm.
So am I a writer?
No.
It sounds absurd as my fingers are moving along the keyboard
right now as I am writing,
so doesn't that make me a writer
or am I just Joni
who craves to be in the Presence of the LORD
so that when she peels herself out of bed
to have a date with GOD
(but first stops at the espresso machine)
and then sits with HIM
and then IT happens.
HE happens~
as HE is happening right now as tears are filling my being.
So am I a writer?
Oh no.
I am just a little girl in an old woman's body
who wants so much more of GOD,
because when
HE IS MORE
I am less
and then I can just be HIS.
Who am I if all my words disappear from my computer?
STILL HIS.
Who am I if I am not ________ or ________?
STILL HIS.
Who are you if you are not _________ or _________?
STILL HIS.
And being HIS is always enough
because HE has to be enough
to make me enough
&
you enough
& everyone else enough.
So let's just
BE HIS
and make it all about
HIM
because
when
"IT'S NOT ABOUT ME"
&
we make it all about HIM
we see HIM
we hear HIM
we experience HIM
no matter what else we may be doing or not doing
no matter what else we may be feeling or not feeling
no matter what else is going on or not going on
for
HE wants to be first place
before our
doing,
feeling
&
going
and even in the midst of our
doing
feeling
&
going
because
HE IS MINE
&
HE IS YOURS
because
you & I are always
STILL HIS
and nothing or no one can change that
because
HE IS & will always be
"STILL MY GOD" (listen to the song below)