I can't sleep.
Was it something I ate?
Is it something I am thinking about?
Is it that I am spending too much time trying to
figure out why I can't sleep,
therefore I can't sleep?
My brain never stops trying to
figure out the "whys".
But what if I just stopped.
If I left the "I" out of the equation
and instead I asked GOD.
I know that sounds so Christian~ese
and way too easy,
so maybe that is why I don't want to bother
GOD and ask HIM such a silly question
of why can't I sleep.
But no question is too silly for GOD.
I should know better because that is how GOD and I work together,
I think my problem is that I think that GOD gets tired of hearing from me,
so I want to give HIM a break.
Okay the tears are flowing.
Why? Hmm. Because GOD just opened up my eyes
to why I am holding back on HIM.
Why would GOD want to take the time
to answer a silly question when there are so many
bigger issues in the world then Joni not sleeping?
So why ask?
But is the issue really how life shattering the question is
or is it that GOD just wants us to ask HIM.
To acknowledge that HE is our GOD.
To pay attention to HIM.
To invite HIM into our life
which is really where HE is supposed to be
or HE would have never created each one of us.
Who creates someone who HE doesn't want to be with?
So now I know why I can't sleep.
GOD was waiting for me to come to HIM
with all my silly and not so silly questions,
And that my friend is when REAL CHANGE happens,
To be totally honest and vulnerable with your CREATOR
who is in the big things
who is in the little things
because HE is in all things.
Don't hesitate to ask GOD the little things
as HE wants to be part of your whole life.
What is on your mind that you believe is way too little for a BIG GOD?
Or maybe you don't have anything on your mind right now,
and if you don't
just talk to HIM
because HE wants to hear from you~
"Trust [confidently] in HIM at all times, O people;
Pour out your heart before HIM. GOD is a refuge for us" (Psalm 62:8).
And once you talk to HIM
you will never be the SAME
because no one leaves the presence of GOD
So if you can't sleep
I can't either,
but what a glorious moment this has turned out to be
because GOD showed up
like HE always does
when we show up
HE is THE
"GOD WHO LISTENS" (listen to the song below)