How are you today?
Do you know yet
or do you have to have your
morning coffee or morning exercise or
whatever you do first every morning
to get you awake
before you decide how you are going to be?
I don't know how I am this morning.
I look forward to getting up before anyone
and sit with
GOD,
but sometimes
like this moment
I am sitting with
GOD
and
HE is pretty quiet.
Maybe HE is taking a break from me.
Maybe HE just wants me to sit in the quiet
and enjoy it~
to just be in the moment with
GOD
and not make
GOD into someone who I want HIM to be for me.
Do I expect an award for meeting with HIM?
What do I want from GOD this morning?
I want to experience HIM like I have never experienced HIM before.
Sounds like I am putting an
EXPECTATION on GOD.
Am I testing GOD?
Am I asking GOD to prove to me that HE is here?
I guess I am because I want something MORE from HIM right now
because I can't FEEL GOD
because I can't FEEL JESUS
because I can't FEEL the HOLY SPIRIT pointing me anywhere right now.
I am trying to make GOD be GOD
because there is nothing greater than experiencing
HIS PRESENCE
that leaves you speechless
because you know
GOD IS GOD.
There is nothing GREATER than experiencing
HIS PEACE that transcends all understanding when you are in the midst of great turmoil.
There is nothing GREATER than experiencing
HIS HOPE that removes the word despair from your vocabulary.
There is nothing greater than not FEELING GOD right now,
because I am so FIXED on desiring more of HIM
that HE is taking over my being right now
by just hanging out with me
right where I am
without trying and striving to prove to me
that HE is here
with me.
Do I really want GOD to have to perform to my every whim
when I want HIM to~
then who would be GOD?
Oh I surrender~
But not my wanting to experience more of GOD,
but my wanting to be GOD
by telling HIM what HE needs to do for me
when HE knows me so better than myself.
GOD is doing exactly what HE is doing in this moment
that is beyond my greatest expectations
Because
GOD of 2019 is the same GOD of 2020,
and the same GOD who from the very beginning created the
sun & the moon
water & land
you & me~
and Who
just wants to hang out with us
where we are
whether we can feel HIM or not
because HE always FEELS us
with a LOVE that never stops loving us.
Thank you GOD for showing up this morning in the way that you show up best~
YOUR WAY
that gets to this heart in the way that YOU want to get to it
that is GREATER than my expectations
because YOU always exceed my expectations~
and all YOU ask is for me to BELIEVE YOU
in all things
in all feelings
in all moments
because
"Without faith it is impossible to please GOD, because anyone who comes to HIM must believe that HE exists and that HE rewards those who earnestly seek HIM" (Hebrews 11:6).
Make this a "GREATER" day (listen to the song below)
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