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  • Writer's pictureJoni

Day 24: God Never Leaves


. It is one of those mornings

when GOD is being so STILL

that it makes me uncomfortable,

as it forces me to be so STILL in the SILENCE,

without having a mountaintop experience

that would send shivers down my spine.

For I LOVE when I FEEL the PRESENCE OF GOD.

But in this very SECOND and the last SECOND that just ticked by,

I am FEELING nothing,

yet trying hard to create something

so that I EXPERIENCE GOD.

In this moment there is a FEAR that maybe GOD will walk away.

Silly to say, but I have had many

who I have LOVED

who have walked away

who I never could imagine

ever walking away,

so why wouldn't the

GOD I LOVE walk away too.

Wow. Just writing that sends

shivers down my spine

as I don't know what I would do

or who I would be

WITHOUT GOD.

I would be WITHOUT.

Well GOD is breaking through the SILENCE,

pulling at my HEART strings

because GOD is tapping into my biggest FEAR

and that is not having HIM in my LIFE.

Maybe this morning is a SILENT morning

that is tapping into my

BIGGEST FEAR

that maybe

GOD would FORSAKE me.

That maybe GOD would be so

DISAPPOINTED in me because I can never measure up,

that HE would toss me aside.

I feel I am getting a taste of what hell would be like.

A LIFE WITHOUT GOD.

As I think about how JESUS must have felt when

HE cried out on the cross

"MY GOD MY GOD why have you FORSAKEN me?"

(Matthew 27:46)

JESUS experienced it so that we never have to.

GOD is bring me back to the

HEART of my FAITH

that is my CHOICE

and your CHOICE.

To CHOOSE JESUS.

Oh a LIFE WITHOUT JESUS

is a LIFE WITHOUT.

What a weird morning this is

as I feel like I was brought to a place

and space to experience the

dead space where there is no GOD.

BUT GOD SHOWED UP

because HE NEVER LEFT,

I am HIS.

"The sheep that are MY own hear MY voice and listen to ME; I know them, and they follow ME. And I give them eternal life, and they will never, ever [by any means] perish; and no one will ever snatch them out of MY hand.

MY FATHER, who has given them to ME,

is greater and mightier than all;

and no one is able to snatch them out of the FATHER'S hand"

(John 10:27-29 AMP).

Lesson learned.

You can't put the face and heart of any human on the

FACE OF GOD~

"GOD is not human, that HE should lie,

not a human being, that HE should change HIS mind.

Does HE speak and then not act?

Does HE promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19)

And that is what I did.

To even think that GOD is like humans.

Oh how the SILENCE got the best of me

that had me coward into FEAR that

GOD would leave me,

when actually

the SILENCE was just a door for

GOD to walk through

so that HE could take me deeper into

my FAITH so

that HE could meet me right where I was

to show me how

BIG HE IS in my LIFE

because I am nothing WITHOUT HIM.

Silly silly me

when I get way too human

and allow FEAR to get the best of me

even though I KNOW the TRUTH,

but sometimes you have to be reminded

how PRECIOUS FAITH is,

as it is

a GIFT

to never be taken lightly

but to be held tightly,

for GOD

"YOU NEVER LET GO"

(listen to the song below)


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