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Writer's pictureJoni

Day 23: Freedom To Live


GOD keeps reminding me

how HE saved me from a life

that had me crawling like a caterpillar,

so that I could FLY.

But was it easy to FLY when I first got my wings,

when all I knew was to crawl?

Oh no, not for me.

I felt like a butterfly, in a cocoon,

flapping my wings

as I looked at all the other butterflies flying

and my wanting be one of them.

But I was one of them.

So I asked GOD,

"What is blocking the doorway to my cocoon?".

And what does GOD do when you ASK?

HE ANSWERS.

FEAR was keeping me stuck.

FEAR of JOY.

FEAR of HAPPINESS.

FEAR of leaving behind my old life of living as

FEARFUL Joni~

guilty,

shamed,

anxiety ridden.

I knew that it made no sense at all

to be FEARFUL of FREEDOM,

but FEAR comes dressed as lies.

I FEARED leaving the cocoon of my past.

FEAR to let go of the old life, even though it kept me trapped,

because there was a lie

that was continually enforced

so that it became my TRUTH~

“I am not allowed to be happy”.

Is it possible to be a

butterfly

and live in a cocoon?

Oh no.

A butterfly was not meant to stay cocooned,

as it

would eventually die.

Same for me.

Time to fly.

But because JESUS is a gentleman,

just as HIS FATHER is,

HE wouldn’t pull me out,

because HE already did.

HE was waiting for me to

take the first flight

as a NEW CREATION.

HE gave me wings to fly,

just as HE gave to the sick woman~

“Daughter your faith has healed you, go in peace" (Luke 8:48).

Just as HE gave to the lame man~

"Pick up your mat at walk" (John 5:8).

Just as HE gives to the weary~

"Come to ME all who are weary" (Matthew 11:28).

All words of actions

for one and for all,

which includes

you & I!

The step of

FAITH

to

BELIEVE

that

you are FREE IN CHRIST!

But how do you say good-bye to what is so familiar,

because it is all you know,

even if it is crippling you.

It is just like surrendering those pair of old jeans

that are broken in,

so worn,

so loose,

so comfortable,

to wear the NEW ones

that are stiff as a board,

tight around the legs.

I would rather choose

the old, worn ones

because

FAMILIAR FEELS GOOD.

But not as HIS DAUGHTER.

But not as HIS SON.

FAMILIAR has to go.

The FEAR of leaving.

FEAR of the unknown,

even though I knew what was better.

Leaving behind all that I knew,

to go to what was better.

THE ABUNDANT LIFE.

But the FEAR of letting go

was the FEAR of letting go of me.

The little girl inside.

The Joni, who I kept well-fed and hidden inside of me.

I still remember that one day

when I felt the LORD tugging at my HEART

to release that fearful little girl

who I was protecting.

And I heard the words loud and clear,

“It is time. She is mine.”

Paralyzed in FEAR, I thought ‘who would I be without her’,

this little girl inside who was always there for me,

whenever

I needed a friend, comfort,

and, most of all, LOVE.

And who could take care of her as no one had in the past.

I got the answer that shook my whole body,

“I WILL!”.

My GOD,

who carried me my whole life even though I didn’t carry HIM.

My GOD,

who brought me to this

breakthrough moment

to release this prisoner

who was caged in since the age of ten.

I met the REAL me, the day I had to let her go.

Oh the FREEDOM to not be

FEARFUL of FREEDOM

and

FEARFUL of JOY

and

FEARFUL of being LOVED

by your CREATOR

and HIS SON.

Why live IN FAMILIAR

as it is too FAMILIAR,

when you can

LIVE IN CHRIST

who takes you beyond your wildest dreams.

Oh

Daughter, your faith has healed you, go in peace.

Oh

Pick up your mat and walk.

Oh

COME TO HIM

so that you are not just coasting through

LIFE

but

LIVING IN THE ABUNDANCE

that is

immeasurably MORE than could ever imagine,

because we were

"MADE TO FLY"

(listen to the song below)


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