GOD keeps reminding me
how HE saved me from a life
that had me crawling like a caterpillar,
so that I could FLY.
But was it easy to FLY when I first got my wings,
when all I knew was to crawl?
Oh no, not for me.
I felt like a butterfly, in a cocoon,
flapping my wings
as I looked at all the other butterflies flying
and my wanting be one of them.
But I was one of them.
So I asked GOD,
"What is blocking the doorway to my cocoon?".
And what does GOD do when you ASK?
HE ANSWERS.
FEAR was keeping me stuck.
FEAR of JOY.
FEAR of HAPPINESS.
FEAR of leaving behind my old life of living as
FEARFUL Joni~
guilty,
shamed,
anxiety ridden.
I knew that it made no sense at all
to be FEARFUL of FREEDOM,
but FEAR comes dressed as lies.
I FEARED leaving the cocoon of my past.
FEAR to let go of the old life, even though it kept me trapped,
because there was a lie
that was continually enforced
so that it became my TRUTH~
“I am not allowed to be happy”.
Is it possible to be a
butterfly
and live in a cocoon?
Oh no.
A butterfly was not meant to stay cocooned,
as it
would eventually die.
Same for me.
Time to fly.
But because JESUS is a gentleman,
just as HIS FATHER is,
HE wouldn’t pull me out,
because HE already did.
HE was waiting for me to
take the first flight
as a NEW CREATION.
HE gave me wings to fly,
just as HE gave to the sick woman~
“Daughter your faith has healed you, go in peace" (Luke 8:48).
Just as HE gave to the lame man~
"Pick up your mat at walk" (John 5:8).
Just as HE gives to the weary~
"Come to ME all who are weary" (Matthew 11:28).
All words of actions
for one and for all,
which includes
you & I!
The step of
FAITH
to
BELIEVE
that
you are FREE IN CHRIST!
But how do you say good-bye to what is so familiar,
because it is all you know,
even if it is crippling you.
It is just like surrendering those pair of old jeans
that are broken in,
so worn,
so loose,
so comfortable,
to wear the NEW ones
that are stiff as a board,
tight around the legs.
I would rather choose
the old, worn ones
because
FAMILIAR FEELS GOOD.
But not as HIS DAUGHTER.
But not as HIS SON.
FAMILIAR has to go.
The FEAR of leaving.
FEAR of the unknown,
even though I knew what was better.
Leaving behind all that I knew,
to go to what was better.
THE ABUNDANT LIFE.
But the FEAR of letting go
was the FEAR of letting go of me.
The little girl inside.
The Joni, who I kept well-fed and hidden inside of me.
I still remember that one day
when I felt the LORD tugging at my HEART
to release that fearful little girl
who I was protecting.
And I heard the words loud and clear,
“It is time. She is mine.”
Paralyzed in FEAR, I thought ‘who would I be without her’,
this little girl inside who was always there for me,
whenever
I needed a friend, comfort,
and, most of all, LOVE.
And who could take care of her as no one had in the past.
I got the answer that shook my whole body,
“I WILL!”.
My GOD,
who carried me my whole life even though I didn’t carry HIM.
My GOD,
who brought me to this
breakthrough moment
to release this prisoner
who was caged in since the age of ten.
I met the REAL me, the day I had to let her go.
Oh the FREEDOM to not be
FEARFUL of FREEDOM
and
FEARFUL of JOY
and
FEARFUL of being LOVED
by your CREATOR
and HIS SON.
Why live IN FAMILIAR
as it is too FAMILIAR,
when you can
LIVE IN CHRIST
who takes you beyond your wildest dreams.
Oh
Daughter, your faith has healed you, go in peace.
Oh
Pick up your mat and walk.
Oh
COME TO HIM
so that you are not just coasting through
LIFE
but
LIVING IN THE ABUNDANCE
that is
immeasurably MORE than could ever imagine,
because we were
"MADE TO FLY"
(listen to the song below)
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