I had a dream,
that a PRAYER I have been PRAYING
was finally being ANSWERED in the way that I PRAYED
it would be ANSWERED.
Yet, I didn't know how to RESPOND,
because it was too GOOD to be true.
I was actually FEARFUL that
my heart would be BROKEN again.
Could I TRUST GOD with this GOOD ANSWER?
FEAR brought back the pain of
the PAST BROKENNESS
as it came flooding back into my heart
But then I realized why.
It was because of the BROKENNESS,
that I have now been
LIVING IN THE PEACE OF GOD
without the ANSWER that I always wanted
because
I learned how to LIVE in the SILENCE while waiting for the ANSWER
by
"TRUSTING in the LORD with ALL my HEART and not leaning not on my own understanding...." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
and as I was
"Waiting for and confidently expecting the LORD;Being strong and letting my heart take courage;Yes, waiting for and confidently expecting the LORD" (Psalm 27:14)
and as I was
"Being joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer"
(Romans 12:12)
and
"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.
I was pressing on toward the goal to win the prize for which GOD has called me heavenward in CHRIST JESUS" (Philippians 3:13-14)
and
so much more
because
I have been basically glued to my SAVIOR'S feet.
I have been
following HIM
&
walking with HIM,
so HE became my STRONGHOLD,
my SAFE PLACE,
my place of REFUGE,
so that
HIS PEACE that transcends all understanding
continually overwhelmed me
as
HE HEALED my BROKEN HEART
and HE became my JOY.
And now what was I to do,
as the DOOR was OPENED for me to
enter back into a place and space
that had caused such great PAIN,
but now was finally over.
I was so used to living without,
that I couldn't picture my life WITH
actually LIVING in the ANSWER that I have been PRAYING for.
GOD then took me to the sick woman in the bible,
who did everything in her power
to just touch the hem of JESUS' garment
in HOPE that she would be HEALED.
And then her answer came as she was
IMMEDIATELY HEALED,
and then JESUS spoke to her,
"DAUGHTER your FAITH has healed you. Go IN PEACE" (Luke 8:48).
I wonder if she was FEARFUL to take the first step as HEALED,
when all she knew was pain.
FEAR OF FREEDOM.
Have you been there?
Are you there now?
Actually,
FEARFUL of being
set FREE
and LIVING FREE
because
JESUS says to you,
"______________, your FAITH has healed you. Go IN PEACE".
Wow.
And then I woke up.
Tears are flowing as the weight of
the years of the BROKENNESS
is flowing out of me.
What WILL I do when GOD ANSWERS my PRAYER the way
HE answered it in my dream.
Will I be FEARUL to enter back into the world
that has been so shattered.
Will I go
UNAFRAID IN HIS PEACE
because
JESUS has been
my HOPE
my PEACE
my JOY
my LOVE
through it all.
What am I really FEARFUL about?
FEAR that I will
lose my tight relationship with
JESUS
who has walked with me and has never stopped
Wow.
There it is.
JESUS isn't just a crutch who you use when things are BROKEN.
JESUS IS ALWAYS
because
JESUS WAS ALWAYS
because
JESUS WILL ALWAYS BE JESUS
in GOOD times and in not~so~good times.
JESUS IS my FOREVER FRIEND
who I NEED ALWAYS,
because
LIFE WITHOUT JESUS WITHOUT JESUS IS A LIFE WITHOUT.
So what will I do with this next SECOND.
Continue
TRUSTING IN THE LORD
and
WAITING ON THE LORD
and
PRAYING TO THE LORD
as I continue
PRESSING FORWARD with JESUS
and
LIVING IN
HIS PEACE
&
HIS HOPE
&
HIS JOY
because of
HIS FOREVER LOVE
that is ALWAYS PRESENT
in GOOD times and in not-so-good times.
And just because
GOD may ANSWER my PRAYER in the way I want HIM to ANSWER it,
and
because GOD may ANSWER your PRAYER in the way that you want HIM to ANSWER it
doesn't mean that
we stop
WALKING
and
FOLLOWING
and
and TRUSTING
and WAITING
and PRAYING
with JESUS
because
JESUS came to
LIVE EVERY SECOND
with us,
because a LIFE WITHOUT JESUS IS A LIFE WITHOUT.
I would have never met JESUS
if I never was so BROKEN in the past,
and if I never reached out and
TOUCHED the hem of HIS garment
to hear the words,
"DAUGHTER your FAITH has healed you. Go in PEACE".
And I haven't stopped GOING IN PEACE
and will never stop GOING IN PEACE.
I thank GOD for the dream,
reminding me that
I can
LIVE FEARLESSLY FREE
no matter how HE ANSWERS my PRAYERS
because
JESUS IS ALWAYS THE ANSWER
and has ALWAYS BEEN THE ANSWER
because
"THERE WAS JESUS"*
and HE WILL ALWAYS BE.
*(listen to the song below)
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