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  • Writer's pictureJoni

Day 20: My Testimony


As I am sitting in the silence,

before the birds have made their first tweet,

GOD is speaking to my soul,

telling me that I have to stop trying to

PROVE JESUS.

Yikes.

Now the silence has a VOICE.

I didn't realize that I was trying to PROVE JESUS,

yet I have been because I have been trying to

PROVE my testimony.

Yikes!

Now the silence has a VOICE.

Can I go back to the silence and not have to respond the VOICE that is speaking to my soul.

I love when GOD gets your attention.

HE does so in order to take you DEEPER into HIS HEART

so HE can fill it with more of HIM,

HIS DESIRES for you!

My desires are HIS DESIRES,

for GOD has placed them on my heart.

And GOD has placed HIS DESIRES on your heart.

My heart desire is for ALL not to just know JESUS, but to EXPERIENCE JESUS.

I can't PROVE JESUS, for JESUS can PROVE HIMSELF.

HE DID. HE ROSE!

I can't PROVE my testimony.

I can't PROVE that JESUS is REAL in my LIFE.

But I know that when you say that

JESUS is who you live for,

beware,

as your life will be magnified by others to find a loop hole that

PROVES you are not LIVING for JESUS.

Well, when you look at me,

you will find a gazillion things that appear to be why others may BELIEVE that I don't have JESUS in my life,

because I have too many IMPERFECTIONS that don't look like JESUS.

And that is why I have to have JESUS in my LIFE.

Anything GOOD you see in me, is JESUS.

Anything NOT SO GOOD you see in me is my FLESH.

I hate my FLESH.

And that is why I have JESUS, because I need JESUS.

Do I use my FLESH as an excuse to LIVE IN my IMPERFECTIONS?

Well, when I try to DEFEND my IMPERFECTIONS I do.

I can't DEFEND my IMPERFECTIONS,

because they are IMPERFECTIONS,

yet I never have to use my IMPERFECTIONS as an excuse

to LIVE in them.

For they

need to covered by the PERFECTION of JESUS.

And when JESUS covers you with

HIS FORGIVENESS,

HIS LOVE,

&

HIS GRACE,

your IMPERFECTIONS drop to the ground

so that you don't want to ever pick them up and ever wear them again.

Oh how I wish I could be PERFECT, and do PERFECT, and please everyone around me,

because that is what is on my heart.

Never to HURT anyone.

Yet I do, without even trying, when my FLESH seeps into.

The silence of the morning is now BROKEN as I hear the words,

“I have loved you with an everlasting love;

Therefore with lovingkindness I

have drawn you and continued

MY faithfulness to you" (Jeremiah 31:3).

JESUS LOVES ME!

JESUS LOVES YOU!

FREEDOM to not have to PROVE JESUS.

FREEDOM to not have to PROVE my testimony,

FREEDOM to not have to PROVE JESUS that is in my

LIFE,

through PERFECTION.

THE FREEDOM to let JESUS be JESUS,

so that HE can continually take my IMPERFECTIONS

and nail them on the CROSS,

so I can be FREE to LIVE IN who I am IN CHRIST.

For outside of CHRIST I am nothing.

I will FAIL, yet JESUS will never FAIL me.

I will FALL SHORT of other's expectations, even my own,

but JESUS will never FALL SHORT.

I will never be PERFECT enough to PROVE JESUS

but JESUS will never have to PROVE HIMSELF to me

that HE IS JESUS and that

HE is my reason for LIVING.

Hmm. So maybe GOD was just TESTIFYING to me this morning,

to show me once again that HE IS GOD and

HE doesn't need my help to PROVE that JESUS IS JESUS!

For JESUS is way better at being JESUS than I could ever strive to be.

"The grace of our LORD [HIS amazing, unmerited favor and blessing] flowed out in superabundance [for me, together] with the faith and love which are [realized] in CHRIST JESUS.

This is a faithful and trustworthy statement,

deserving full acceptance and approval,

that CHRIST JESUS came into the world to save sinners,

among whom I am foremost.

Yet for this reason I found mercy, so that in me as the

foremost [of sinners],

JESUS CHRIST might demonstrate

HIS perfect patience as an example or pattern

for those who would believe in HIIM for eternal life"

(1 Timothy 1:14-16).

Therefore,

I will continue to

FOLLOW JESUS

to where HE is taking me,

that is always a better place than I am in the moment,

because each step you take with

JESUS,

JESUS changes you

because

HE becomes BIGGER, and you become smaller,

so that HE is THE LIGHT that beams from your heart

so that you don't have to ever, ever, ever have to

PROVE JESUS or PROVE your testimony

because

JESUS is

"MY TESTIMONY"

(listen to the song below)


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