• Joni

Day 2: Striving to Arrive

I have been striving to be SEEN and HEARD for most of my life,

because I never felt SEEN or HEARD.

Therefore I took that to mean that

I was insignificant, insecure, and unacceptable.

So what is a child to do?

Oh do the dance of performance,

because you believe that if you dance perfectly then you will be SEEN and HEARD.

But oh how exhausting that is

when you are striving to get what you want

yet you don’t get it,

because then

you just strive harder and harder and harder

until you go splat.

And then you are left with yourself

with no more striving lef