Day 14: Un Unworthy
You know you need to do it. You know you want to do it.
Yet FEAR fills you being,
because getting out of the boat
and walking on water
is an impossibility for you.
Why even try
as you would rather just sit in the rocking boat
watching others walking on water
because you don't DESERVE to have the same
JOY & PEACE & HOPE
that the water walkers have
ARROW of UNWORTHY
is stuck in your heart
you don't know how to live without it.
But then you hear the words,
“Take courage, it is I! Do not be afraid!” (Matthew 14:27)
How can you be COURAGEOUS to take that step
when you don't BELIEVE that the water would hold you.
But oh you are craving it as you are so tired of being left in the boat..
But then you hear the words again,
“Daughter, take courage; your faith has made you well" (Matthew 9:22)
And you start to squirm because you keep hearing the same message~
“Take courage, son; your sins are forgiven” (Matthew 9:2)
And now you really start to squirm
because you realize that the words are not just coming from your head
as they are being drawn from your wounded heart~
coming from the ONE who is WALKING ON WATER
and is speaking right to you~.
But if HE really knew you
like you know yourself
and like everyone else knows you
HE wouldn't be asking you to
take that step
because you just have too many
that keep reminding you that you are
to even put your toe in the water.
But then you see HIS HAND reaching out to you.
Tears fill your eyes
as you realize that HE is really asking you to
the confident assurance that HE will bring you to spaces & places where you never
BELIEVED you could go,
but it is YOU who was keeping yourself in the boat.
And then you do it.
You stand up,
laying FEAR aside for a brief moment
a wee bit of TRUST starts to remove
from your heart.
You are overwhelmed
that the hardest step
becomes the easiest step
as you RECEIVE HIS INVITATION.
And then everything changes in an instant
as HOPE starts to flood your soul
living as UNWORTHY
doesn't have to be AN OPTION any longer.
Oh that step of FAITH will cost you~
everything that you have that has kept you stuck in the boat.
is NO LONGER AN OPTION
"PUT YOUR HAND IN THE HAND" (listen below)