Do you ever
LOSE HOPE
when
it
FEELS
as if
THE SOMETHING that you are PRAYING about
is falling upon deaf ears,
because
it
FEELS
as if
NOTHING is HAPPENING.
You
FEEL
like you are
TRUSTING GOD
&
you
FEEL
like you are
FOLLOWING JESUS,
yet wonder THEY are
when
HOPELESSNESS becomes
THE OPEN DOOR
that you start to walk through.
So you
TRY to TRUST GOD harder
and
TRY to FOLLOW JESUS harder
when it isn't in the
TRYING,
but in the
LETTING GO
of
MISPLACED HOPE.
I hate to admit it, but I will ,
as I am FEELING like this on this early morn.
BUT when I take these
FEELINGS to GOD,
oh how HE he HEARS
and then
reminds me that
GOD IS NOT A FEELING
&
JESUS IS NOT A FEELING.
And that is where my problem lies.
Just because I
FEEL NOTHING is HAPPENING,
doesn't mean
that GOD is sleeping on the job.
For GOD tells us
to TRUST IN HIM
and not in our
OWN UNDERSTANDING,
for our
OWN UNDERSTANDING
is our
FEELINGS!
FEELINGS are not TRUTH.
And when you are a
FEELING person like me,
your FEELINGS start to slowly trump TRUTH,
until
you become so wrapped up in your
FEELINGS
that you BELIEVE that there is
SOMETHING
more that you can do
to speed up the process of
WAITING on GOD.
MISPLACED HOPE~
placing your
HOPE
in
THE SOMETHING HAPPENING
instead of
GOD HAPPENING.
Therefore,
I make
THE SOMETHING my god.
And yes a little "g",
because there is only
ONE GOD
who gets the capital G.
THE GOD
for where
my HOPE has to be placed.
GOD is always HAPPENING
whether
I FEEL or SEE
THE SOMETHING HAPPENING.
Picture this.
You see two doors.
One door has a sign with
FEELINGS
above it,
as it is the DOOR that is attached to
THE SOMETHING that you want to HAPPEN.
The other door
has a sign above it with the name of
JESUS.
Which DOOR would you OPEN and walk through?
Hmm.
The immediate Christian-ese answer is THE JESUS DOOR,
but oh how I choose
THE FEELINGS DOOR
because I know
GOD & JESUS cares about
THE SOMETHING,
and I know THEY would understand
why I would CHOOSE that DOOR.
So I turn the knob.
And then I hear the words
coming from the
JESUS DOOR~
"TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART" (Proverbs 3:5).
I stop for a second,
yet continue to turn the doorknob
for I know that I know that
GOD cares about THE SOMETHING too.
And then I hear the words
coming from the
JESUS DOOR~
"HAVE FAITH IN GOD" (Mark 11:22).
I stop.
You stop.
So there it is.
FAITH.
FAITH HOPES in the UNSEEN,
because you
BELIEVE what GOD SEES.
HE SEES your
SOMETHING
that you are PRAYING about.
And JESUS FEELS what you FEEL about your
SOMETHING.
So if GOD SEES and JESUS FEELS,
which DOOR do you OPEN?
And then you hear the words
coming from
THE JESUS DOOR~
"FIX YOUR EYES ON ME" (Hebrews 12:2.)
And now you RELEASE your hand from the doorknob
You walk over to the
JESUS DOOR
because you are
SURRENDERING
THE FEELINGS DOOR TO GOD.
You turn the doorknob
and a
PEACE washes over you like you have never FELT before.
You are greeted with the words,
"Peace I leave with you; MY [perfect] peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. [Let MY perfect peace calm you in every circumstance and give you courage and strength for every challenge]" (John 14:27).
HOPE returns to your soul
because you
no longer
TRUST IN FEELINGS
because you
"TRUST IN JESUS"
(listen to the song below)