Day 10: God Block

Some call it writer's block,

but I call it

GOD BLOCK.

Let me explain.

GOD pours into me a vision,

filling my mind with word pictures

that tells HIS STORY.

And HIS creativity has no bounds,

as I am overwhelmed with 10,000s of word pictures.

HE first gives me a verse,

 like HE has for the upcoming Christmas event.

And then the SPIRIT explodes inside of me.

And before you know it I have millions of words stored in my computer

and all my props from amazon are being delivered .

Oh it is actually dynamic,

as truly HE pours HIS WORDS into me.

And now I am here.

With so many WORDS,

that look like a 50,000 piece puzzle

scattered all over the place.

Because

what GOD hasn't gifted me

is the how to put this all together,

for I really don't like doing puzzles.

Oh how I try to get the BORDER pieces,

but all I see is CHAOS and CONFUSION.

So I sit in CHAOS and CONFUSION,

"sort of" PRAYING my way through.

"Sort of" PRAYING.

Now what is that?

Well NOT TRUSTING,

 but "sort of" TRUSTING GOD.

Is "sort of" PRAYING

really PRAYING

or is it DOUBTING GOD

will show up in my WEAKNESS?

Hmm.

So as I "sort of" PRAY

ANXIETY starts to be birthed,

then HOPELESSNESS,

as I see that there is no way that this puzzle will ever be completed.

So I call it WRITER'S BLOCK,

as I sit and sit and sit

in CONFUSION & CHAOS.

But where is GOD?

Well, of course HE is with me,

 because HE is who I am writing about.

But is HE really with me,

or have I left HIM out.

Hmm.

Oh HE is probably smiling,

 as HE is WAITING for me

to TRUST HIM.

And this is where HE found me,

in what I am calling

WRITER'S BLOCK,

is really

THE GOD BLOCK.

THE GOD BLOCK,

when I am

TRUSTING IN myself

and not

 TRUSTING GOD.

GOD BLOCK~

"I can do ALL things through ME who doesn't give me strength".

Hmm.

For who gave me the VISION in the first place?

GOD.

So who will see me through it?

GOD.

So where IS GOD? 

Hmm.

HE is right where I left HIM,

just thrown in with all of the other 50,000 puzzle pieces,

just waiting for me to

BE STILL AND KNOW

that GOD IS GOD.

GOD woke me up,

as I FORGOT to INVITE HIM into my morning.

Just because HE is with me,

I can't leave HIM on the shelf.

For I always NEED HIM.

For who am I without GOD?

NOTHING.

And I don't want to be a NOTHING.

For what can I do without GOD?

NOTHING!

For I lived my life like a NOTHING,

trying to find where I fit in.

Until

GOD found me,

just like HE did this morning

as HE was waiting for me to LOOK UP.

Oh how GOD can get lost in the broken pieces of life,

but then you see a flicker of LIGHT,

that gets brighter and brighter

as you move closer and closer.

And there HE IS.

GOD'S SON.

JESUS.

For GOD so loved the world that HE sent HIS ONE and ONLY SON,

who is waiting with open arms

as HE whispers,

"COME TO ME".

For

"I can do ALL things through CHRIST who gives me strength",

to do the impossible,

to be the strength I need to do what I am called to do.

Now facing 50,0000 words to organize,

is not a traumatic circumstance that I have to face.

But leaving GOD out

of anything is traumatic,

because

a LIFE WITHOUT GOD IS A LIFE WITHOUT.

Oh,

LOOK UP in the SIMPLE things.

Oh,

 LOOK UP in the BIG things.

Oh,

 just LOOK UP  to say THANK YOU.

For

JESUS never FORGETS about you or I

in ALL THINGS.

So this morning I found HIS PIECE, 

or should I say that

HIS PEACE found me.

And all it took was

ONE SECOND for me to stop

"sort of" PRAYING,

and instead to

BE STILL and INVITE GOD

into my SECOND,

for HE has IMMEASURABLY MORE

in my less.

And all I have to do is have

 FAITH LIKE A CHILD,

who RECEIVES A GIFT

without question.

For GOD was waiting for me this morning,

to give me

IMMEASURABLY MORE

than I could ever IMAGINE,

in this very second.

Tick. Tick. Tick.

Where is GOD in this SECOND 

that HE has GIFTED you?

Do you want to experience HIS MORE?

For HE IS waiting.

And all you have to do is to

"LOOK UP"

(listen to the song below)