All I can be is honest & I have
GOD to thank for that.
When I had no where to turn,
because where I was turning
was causing more destruction than what it intended to be~
I had to look up
& ask~
WHO ARE YOU GOD?
I went to church.
I believed everything that was said.
I even was sad that JESUS was on the cross,
but HE was JESUS
& that was what
HE
was supposed to do.
But at that moment,
when I looked up
I realized
I didn't really know
GOD
& I didn't really know
JESUS.
They were just two people I would visit on Sundays.~
until I looked up.
And
GOD
started to answer my own question.
WHO AM I, Joni~
I AM your Creator.
I AM your Father.
I love you more than anyone could ever love you.
I will never fail you.
I will never leave you by yourself.
I will listen to all your woes & even your woes about ME
& I still will never stop loving you.
Well I tried to push
GOD away.
I told HIM everything
& waited for HIM to run away from me.
And HE never did.
HE actually came closer to me.
HE wanted me. HE wanted all of me.
And to be able to be so brutally honest to your
CREATOR
& in the midst of all of it~
HE LOVES YOU
more & more
& gives you
More & More.
I can only be honest to
HIM
& to me
& to you.
I don't hide anymore.
I can't and I won't.
Some believe me & some don't.
As tears trickle down my face
I am so saddened
by conflicts & by misunderstandings
that my heart hurts beyond explanation.
But I continue to
LOOK UP
to the
ONE
who not only answered my question~
WHO ARE YOU GOD?
but also has given me so much more beyond explanation
because
GOD
doesn't need to prove
HIMSELF
because
HE IS GOD~
My GOD
& I hope
that
HE IS your GOD.
And that is
the TRUTH~
the whole TRUTH ¬hing but the TRUTH
because
that is
WHO GOD IS!
Just look up and
BELIEVE~(listen below)