Honestly

All I can be is honest & I have

GOD to thank for that.

When I had no where to turn,

because where I was turning

was causing more destruction than what it intended to be~

I had to look up

& ask~

WHO ARE YOU GOD?

I went to church.

I believed everything that was said.

I even was sad that JESUS was on the cross,

but HE was JESUS

& that was what

HE

was supposed to do.

But at that moment,

when I looked up

I realized

I didn't really know

GOD

& I didn't really know

JESUS.

They were just two people I would visit on Sundays.~

until I looked up.

And

GOD

started to answer my own question.

WHO AM I, Joni~

I AM your Creator.

I AM your Father.

I love you more than anyone could ever love you.

I will never fail you.

I will never leave you by yourself.

I will listen to all your woes & even your woes about ME

& I still will never stop loving you.

Well I tried to push

GOD away.

I told HIM everything

& waited for HIM to run away from me.

And HE never did.

HE actually came closer to me.

HE wanted me. HE wanted all of me.

And to be able to be so brutally honest to your

CREATOR

& in the midst of all of it~

HE LOVES YOU

more & more

& gives you

More & More.

I can only be honest to

HIM

& to me

& to you.

I don't hide anymore.

I can't and I won't.

Some believe me & some don't.

As tears trickle down my face

I am so saddened

by conflicts & by misunderstandings

that my heart hurts beyond explanation.

But I continue to

LOOK UP

to the

ONE

who not only answered my question~

WHO ARE YOU GOD?

but also has given me so much more beyond explanation

because

GOD

doesn't need to prove

HIMSELF

because

HE IS GOD~

My GOD

& I hope

that

HE IS your GOD.

And that is

the TRUTH~

the whole TRUTH &nothing but the TRUTH

because

that is

WHO GOD IS!

Just look up and

BELIEVE~(listen below)