Forced Stillness

Oh it is one of those mornings

where I am just sitting here

and being

still

and I don't like it.

I like the

stillness

but at the same time I don't.

All I can hear is the

stillness

but also the wind blowing

and the rain pelting

and the ringing in my ears.

stillness

one of those words

that sends shivers up some people's spine.

stillness

a choice to make

and sometimes it is a forced choice,

like what my husband has to do

as he recovers from his eye surgery.

To be so