Different

What if from the moment you jump out of bed

to the moment when you get back in at night,

everything could be different

than what it is?

You get to exchange what you don't want

in order to receive what you do want.

What would you get rid of

and

What would you take?

Tears just filled my eyes as I am writing

and I don't know why.

Could it be because I feel helpless

for wanting what I so desire to be so different

that it is out of my control?

Could it be because of all the sorrow I do see

in the lives of so many?

Could it be because I want everything

and everyone to be so different~

even myself when I

choose

anxiety over peace

doubt over trust

bitterness over forgiveness

wrong over right?

Because I do know that~

"I truly delight in God’s commands,

but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight.

Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it,

they take charge."*

Could it be because I can't be that person I desire to be on my own?

Because oh how I have tried in the past, and it never worked

as I relate to Paul's words~

"I’ve tried everything and nothing helps.

I’m at the end of my rope.

Is there no one who can do anything for me?"*

Isn’t that the real question?

Maybe it is about

Someone Else

and not me

because

what I want when I want it is okay to want

but

I can't make it happen

because

I can't even control myself at times

but

Someone Else

can do so much more

and has done so much more

so why try doing what only

Someone Else

can do~

"The answer, thank God, is that

Jesus Christ

can and does.

(*Romans 7:22-25 The Message)

So I ask you again

yet in a different way~

What if from the moment you jump out of bed

to the moment when you get back in at night,

you could be

different?

Listen below~