It's Not About Me

I finally get it~

Jesus

came to make things new.

I finally get it~

It isn't me that can make things new.

I finally get it~

I can't

turn water into wine

I can't

make the blind see

I can't heal the brokenhearted~

I can't,

yet I try.

I strive

because

as a

New Creation in Him

I believe that I have to try

to be that

New Creation~

Who

Acts Perfect

Talks Perfect

Lives Perfect~

and you know what

besides being exhausting

I can't

no matter how hard .

I strive to be that

New Creation

who strives

to produce the fruit of

Love,

Joy,

Peace,

Patience,

Kindness,

Goodness,

Faithfulness,

Gentleness

&

Self-control.

And guess what

I fail every time

because I am not the one who can produce it.

Why was

The Baby

born?

To be what I am not.

To live in me to produce what I can't.

God has put on my heart,

from my first step when I became a Christian,

my favorite scripture

"Be still and know

that I am God" ~Psalm 46:10

I would recite it,

as I have it written on my heart

and all over my home,

yet I would still be striving

helping God out

striving to be the perfect

Daughter of the One True king.

I have failed

terribly

and today

I finally get it

I am a

New Creation

In Him,

not in Joni.

He is the perfect that covers all my imperfections.

I feel free

as I surrender

to be me

so that

He can be He

in me.

There is a new girl in town~

and when you see something you like in me

know that it is

Him~

The Him

who was Born to

live in me

and

to live in you

to make us into a

New Creation.

So try it~

let go and

Be still

and

Know

That God is God

And finally get it

and you will experience

all the gifts of

Christmas that

came

wrapped in a wee little

Baby

who came

to

cover all the imperfectons

that make you you

and that make me me

so that

you can be you

and

I can be me

and

that is

perfect enough!